Job? What Job? I'll explain..

I realized after I posted last night that some of you, actually, most of you, have no idea what job I am referring to. Well, let me explain. My post last night was the result of an overflow of emotions and today, a bit more levelheaded, I can explain what it all means.

Well four weeks ago I received a phone call from my old boss at Ben and Jerry's, Pete. He knew I was on the search for something full time and had an opportunity for me. I interviewed with the Editor-in-Chief of INsite and Welcome magazine, Kevin, and was offered the job on the spot. It helps to have connections in Gainesville, let me just say that. I started that next Monday, shadowing the man I was replacing. Odd situation for me, being that he was asked to leave (aka canned). It was very odd following him around for a week and trying to get a grasp for the position. He was unmotivated and very unproductive; wouldn't you be if you were just fired and expected to train the newbie. Anyway... my official title is Distribution Manager/House Sales Executive/Special Projects. What does that all mean? Well, I hire/fire delivery drivers to distribute our 5 different magazines. I sometimes have to do crappy work and deliver myself but it's a nice break from the office and gets me out and about. In the office I constantly have to revise routes as businesses come and go around town. I have to check up on silly things, like making sure our boxes around town are in good condition and recently had to file a police report because one box was stolen. How weird! I have to visit our house clients monthly to collect any ad copy they want to be in the magazine. The fun part for me is designing those ads for them and shadowing our graphic designer, Cheryl. That's when I get to use my creativity and marketing. I also have the opportunity to make my own sales, the part of the job I'm emotionally struggling with. Thanks to Dad and some others I am talking myself through it. The Special Projects part is actually kinda fun. Right now I am working on a contest our magazine is running. Anyone who enters can win a number of prizes and I am the one to collect the prizes from our sponsors, notify the winner, and see their reaction when I hand them $2,000 worth of great prizes. So needless to say, I keep busy. I have my own office, phone line, e-mail, and computer. It's pretty nice and I feel very independent. It's all going to be a great experience if nothing else and I am excited to see what is next for me.

Now I'm going to lay down and read. With no school work or studying to do it's nice to have time to myself when I come home from work.

Bad Day Turned Good

So my day today started out pretty shitty. Felt useless and unproductive until lunch time, then came home for a lunch that wasn't very good only to go back to work and do things I didn't want to do. At some point during the day I kinda gave myself a pep talk and it's amazing how much better I felt afterwards. I had to give my boss a presentation and I was soooo nervous about it. I shouldn't have been, I knew the information like the back of my hand, but I was scared shitless. He helped me through it and told me just to talk, to tell a story instead of reading a script and my whole mood suddenly shifted and I felt such a sense of relief. I guess the fact that he acknowledged my feeling of anxiety and accepted that I was only human helped me calm down. Anyway, I am now in a great mood and now I can't shake my smile :-D I have also decided to go ahead full force with my desire to learn graphic design and I am overly excited about it!!! I am going to start taking seminars at this local computer resource center. It's a big investment for me, my first big investment, but it's pretty exciting that I know it will have a positive, long lasting effect on my life. I got the O.K. from my boss to have a few days off when I need them to take these classes and I can't wait to get started. The next step is finding a way to get the very expensive programs that I will need to develop my skills and practice at home. All very exciting!!